OK, so I told myself I wasn't allowed to start panicking or getting nervous about not having a job come March until it was February.
Well, it's February.
I am officially beginning to get nervous. Panic has started creeping into my vocabulary but I am not experiencing anything even closely resembling full blown panic yet (although I think I probably should!).
Three weeks of employment left.
I'm beginning to think the decision to resign from a perfectly good* job was more stupid than brave but as of today I am still holding onto the belief that it was the right decision.
*"perfectly good" is defined here through the lens of a very romanticized version of reality that is often applied to experiences in my past. In this case the romanticized version of reality is one in which both the word "perfect" and the word "good" have alternate meanings that include words like "misery" and "exhaustion" and "burn-out".
At least I know myself well enough to recognize my own unique version of sanity. :)
2 comments:
something will come up. keep networking and applying. a door/window/hole in the floor will open! xoxox
I'm thinking about you all the time and sending out good vibes as best I can (as well as talking to everyone I can think of!) I know something will turn up, just hope it is soon. Your grandparents said again that you can come to them to stay as long as you need. Hugs
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